***I received the following in an email and it is posted on John’s blog. It is posted here as well with permission from the writer. Please visit his site to enjoy more of his words and his wonderful songs. ~Sue***
I’ve been plugging away at this particular phase of my artistic life for about 7 years now. I’ve spent the majority of this time trying to write good songs and to get people to listen to them.
Songs like George R.R. Martin Is Not Your Bitch, The Millennium Falcon For Christmas, Summer Glau & Steampunk Girl found niche audiences and helped me to obtain whatever notoriety that I have. It’s been great. Those songs are the reason that I’m able to communicate with you right now, and I couldn’t be more grateful.
But there’s a dark side…
For every song that got a lot of attention, for every write-up on Tor.com or io9, for every opportunity to open for Paul & Storm and Molly Lewis, it left me wanting more. It left me feeling like I deserved more. That’s a dark place to be.
So, after months of consideration, I’ve come to a conclusion:
Let me clarify. I’m not going to stop composing and performing music. I’m quitting the race. I’m getting off the nerd music ladder. I just don’t want to be in that head space anymore.
I’ve come to the realization that in regards to my artistic life, there are only two things that matter to me:
1. Enjoying the act of making new music
2. Talking to you about the creative process
That’s it. I’ve gotten so much out of all of the little conversations that we’ve had via e-mail/Twitter/Facebook. I want to focus on that as much as my music. I’m almost more proud of the fact that I’ve helped to facilitate conversations about creativity in this community, then I am about my music.
With that being said…
Where are you at in your own creative life?
Please share your thoughts in the comments below.